What’s up with me

Hi guys,

I hope everyone has been well. I haven’t posted in ages and the only real excuse I have is that life just gets busy. During winter I was spending a lot of my weekends skiing and when I wasn’t skiing I was helping around the house to help my parents out. I’ve also been working on my own self care as I resigned from my second job two weeks ago and have decided to spend my now abundance of spare time doing things that make me genuinely happy. Things like watching netflix shows, playing with my dogs, going to the gym and reading, just to name a few.

One of the main reasons I’ve decided that I need to practice self care more is that I was recently diagnosed with Scoliosis Kyphosis. For those who don’t want to read the link, its a spinal curve both as a sideways ‘S’ shape and a forward spinal curve. A couple of my vertebrae essentially didn’t form properly, leading to these curves. It’s something that while it has definitely taken a toll on my self confidence, its not that major. The one relief I got out of the whole process was that there was a reason behind my chronic back pain.

Scoliosis is something that is generally spotted at an early age (pre-teen) but was missed with me. I had a specialist tell me that it was missed purely because I have managed to grow a centred torso, whereas a lot of patients will be slightly off to one side. In the words of the surprisingly blunt specialist “You’re quite centred, so I can understand why this has only been spotted at 22, others are quite unaesthetic”.

Those who are diagnosed at a young age can generally stop it from getting any worse, if you’re an adult though its a bit trickier and I was pretty much told that ‘it cant be fully straightened, but it can be prevented from getting any worse’ (yay me!).

I am in no means trying to organise a pity party for myself. I personally believe that admitting your challenges and discussing them with others is a pillar of self care. This is the card I have been dealt and that’s okay. I did a face mask and watched a rom-com, now I’m ready to face this challenge and move on. How are you practicing self care and what does it mean to you?

I’m off to the THIS THAT festival this weekend, hopefully have some nice pics to share then, for the time being enjoy this photo of me before going to Yours & Owls the beginning of October xx

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My (very minor) existential crisis

Hi Everyone,

Recently I received feedback from an interview that I had had for a media assistant position and although I had applied for it a while ago and I had gotten another job offer, I still went for the interview. The two girls that interviewed me were lovely, I was late due to train issues and that I was going into the heart of Sydney straight from where I work (about an hour away) but they were fine with it. I think because of my train mishap I was already quite flustered and stressed when I entered the interview.

Anyway, I wont bore you with the details. The interview ended and they told me that they would let me know on Friday if I got the job, they did however mention that they had an important lunch on Friday too so I wasn’t sure it was definitely going to be Friday. I sent a follow up email (employers love this, it shows determination) and part of me knew that I hadn’t gotten the job, which is fine. In my follow up email I asked for feedback, which I believe is important because you can sit through a thousand interviews and get rejected a thousand times but if you don’t ask for feedback, when are you going to get the offer?

Her response hit me a lot harder than I thought it was if I’m honest. She was very lovely!! But she did say I lacked confidence and that it was something that needed to be worked on if I was to thrive in the industry (marketing). I’m honestly quite an outspoken person and am not shy when it comes to making friends but boy does that change in a work environment.

When I first start at any job, I am nauseatingly shy. It takes me about 3 weeks to a month to warm up to everyone and honestly the change is generally overnight. One day I’ll be silent and focused on working and the next I’ll be chatting to everyone, engaging in some banter and looking very comfortable (Pretty bloody different hey!).

I’m trying to figure out how I can combat this social anxiety, I know it has to do with confidence and I often watch others and see how confident they are in their jobs and how they carry themselves. I’ve recently been trying the whole ‘Fake it ’til you make it’ tactic in that I just pretend to be confident in what I’m saying and I’m hoping that I’ll just get to the point that I won’t be pretending anymore.

My boyfriend tells me that I need to pretend I have the same amount of confidence as him (easier said than done as he is very confident). But I’ve decided that I need to believe in my ability more, as if I don’t believe in my ability to do a job than why would anyone else?

Sorry for the weird existential crisis post but I think this post was very much something I needed to get off my chest.

Hope everyone has a happy day xx

Kathryn

PS. If you interview for a job ALWAYS send a follow up email! They love it and it puts you that little bit ahead as it shows how keen you are xx

Why applying for graduate jobs is so exciting

Welcome back!

Last time I left you with an incredibly negative post about job hunting after uni and how the unrealistic expectations set by society puts pressure and stress on recent graduates to land a job as soon as they leave their final exam.

For this post I want to talk about how exciting job hunting can be after university and how it enables you to discover what you truly want to do after university.

I’ve found for me that looking at graduate opportunities makes me really want to succeed, despite the many jobs I’ve applied at and how little I’ve heard back from them, I still get excited at what I could be doing. That probably sounds a little sad, but I want to stress that it isn’t. I’ve always been a firm believer in that everything happens for a reason and that if you want something you must work to get it.

In my first year at uni, I told my mum “I will be successful” and I’ve carried that thought throughout my whole degree. Which sounds cringey, but honestly keeping that thought in my mind really helped me through my degree.

My personal view point for applying for jobs is that I need to be able to see myself doing and loving the work that I anticipate will be given to me (if i get hired of course). I recently turned down an internship due to it not being the right fit for me. It felt all sorts of wrong saying no to someone, even though this internship was in one of the industries I want to work in, I knew that it wasn’t the right place for me and that I had different opportunities in store.

Applying for jobs now that I have finished uni allows me to fully see what type of opportunities are available to me and makes me excited to excel further in my career.

I know with my last post I sounded incredibly angry at the system and came across that I was angry at uni for making like “so hard” for a privileged white girl. In reality, university allows you to open your mind to all these opportunities that if you apply yourself that you can achieve them.

I may have finished my job hunt for now, and while I gain more industry experience you may see a post in 1-2 years time about how annoyed I am at the job applying process all over again.

Will admit I’ve always loved the chase!

Until next time.

Kathryn xx

 

Post Uni Life

“So, what are you gonna do now?”

As if that’s not the most annoying question to be asked after finishing any form of study. I want to be able to say “Well of course I’m looking for full time work. Hopefully it will be paid, but realistically I’ll probably work a part time internship that is unpaid for 6 months to a year which will leave me at my hospitality job for longer than I had wanted. This will then land me a job that still won’t pay me enough to start paying off my HECS debt, which will mean I wont be able to afford a house, which will mean I’ll still live 20 minutes from anywhere with my parents (which I don’t hate). But for now hospitality will do”.

But instead I respond, “Hopefully find a full time job, but at the moment I’m still working casually”.

Now that that’s over, I’ll get to the point of this blog post.

Finishing a university degree has to be the most satisfying thing I have ever done. However looking for work afterwards, is not. I find that looking for work or work experience after finishing a university nearly IMPOSSIBLE. Due to the fact that employers either don’t understand what entry levels jobs are or that they don’t understand how much experience a university student can actually acquire after 3 years full time study.

Why is it that we go to university to get a good job, but that proves to be very difficult as soon as you get a degree?

Personally, I think there should be a new level of work introduced for employers; Post Entry-Level, so that those who haven’t done an internship or those who don’t quite have the amount of experience that the employer is after can recognise that they wont be considered and don’t have to waste their time (Just a thought).

One thing that needs to be stressed more in university is that it isn’t about what you know, but who you know (and yet here I am, looking up tips to boost confidence for job interviews). Majority of the time if you have managed to maintain a distinction average throughout your whole degree, odds are the employer won’t look at that and pretty much just see that you have a degree (and yet that isn’t enough some times). 

As an aspiring marketer nothing frustrates me more looking for entry level jobs (specified entry level jobs on LinkedIn) to find that I need “2 years experience in a similar role”. Here’s a question for the employers; How do you propose we get this experience? Whilst also passing uni? Whilst also maintaining a healthy social life? Whilst also drinking enough water? It’s next to impossible, the only reason I’m not saying it is impossible because someone must have done this otherwise you all wouldn’t be asking for it (I guess?).

I guess all i’m trying to say is I know looking for a job is hard and I am willing to put in the hard work in order to get my foot in the door, but the idea that university students should be able to find work after getting a degree is flawed.

I’m sorry that my comeback post was somewhat negative, I’ve been waiting for inspiration to strike and it came in the form of a rant.

I’ll be posting more often now hopefully!

Kathryn xx